That's how I'm feeling today.
Yesterday was the worst day, I felt so uncomfortable the whole day with a heavy period. I should have been resting but instead I was running around like a blue ass fly, cooking and cleaning. We had about 8 friends over for home made pizzas last night, two guests were late because they decided to ride their bicycles to our place, 30 miles in the wet and it took longer than expected as they got a bit lost. I almost convinced Andrew to postpone the pizza night to next weekend but I went through with it anyway. I'm not glad that we still did it, I'm just glad it's over.
I am physically lethargic, mentally and emotionally battered. Angry that my body is so messed up, angry that things just haven't gone right for us. Bitter that it has gone right for others. I guess if there is anything good to extract out of the anger and bitterness, it is the motivation to pick myself up and prepare to start again.
I think I'll have a shower and go to bed early. Not sure I can be bothered with cooking dinner tonight, Andrew will have to fend for himself.
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