I have neglected this poor little blog, haven't I?
For good reason though. I have been going through a period of self healing so have pretty much been wanting to keep to myself. I'm still working through the issues so if I don't update for a while, at least you know why.
We've had some miserable cold weather again recently, even a few hard frosts that made it unpleasant to crawl out of bed at 4.30 in the morning. But these last three days have been lovely and I have managed to mow the lawn again. It's amazing how quickly the grass grows here, I think I'll have to cut it every week at this rate.
We are no nearer to renting a place, Andrew has had to spend money on accommodation for a course he did up north, then we had to travel up that way again for his great aunt's 80th birthday which meant a night in a motel. Just one expense on top of another lately!
So at this stage, it looks like we won't be moving til September-ish.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Like a slug
That's how I'm feeling today.
Yesterday was the worst day, I felt so uncomfortable the whole day with a heavy period. I should have been resting but instead I was running around like a blue ass fly, cooking and cleaning. We had about 8 friends over for home made pizzas last night, two guests were late because they decided to ride their bicycles to our place, 30 miles in the wet and it took longer than expected as they got a bit lost. I almost convinced Andrew to postpone the pizza night to next weekend but I went through with it anyway. I'm not glad that we still did it, I'm just glad it's over.
I am physically lethargic, mentally and emotionally battered. Angry that my body is so messed up, angry that things just haven't gone right for us. Bitter that it has gone right for others. I guess if there is anything good to extract out of the anger and bitterness, it is the motivation to pick myself up and prepare to start again.
I think I'll have a shower and go to bed early. Not sure I can be bothered with cooking dinner tonight, Andrew will have to fend for himself.
Yesterday was the worst day, I felt so uncomfortable the whole day with a heavy period. I should have been resting but instead I was running around like a blue ass fly, cooking and cleaning. We had about 8 friends over for home made pizzas last night, two guests were late because they decided to ride their bicycles to our place, 30 miles in the wet and it took longer than expected as they got a bit lost. I almost convinced Andrew to postpone the pizza night to next weekend but I went through with it anyway. I'm not glad that we still did it, I'm just glad it's over.
I am physically lethargic, mentally and emotionally battered. Angry that my body is so messed up, angry that things just haven't gone right for us. Bitter that it has gone right for others. I guess if there is anything good to extract out of the anger and bitterness, it is the motivation to pick myself up and prepare to start again.
I think I'll have a shower and go to bed early. Not sure I can be bothered with cooking dinner tonight, Andrew will have to fend for himself.
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